“You are definitely living life on the fast lane”, that is what my mum keeps telling me when she sees my social calendar. It is true though, I am out a lot. For example last week I had a Scouts meeting, a work dinner, an after work event with my social expat group, a school theatre play, a coffee-and-carrot-cake-together and I took the Scouts to an open air museum in the north in the country. This week has not been any better – I so far have been out for an after-work event in my favourite bar (Monday), cake and drinks at my favourite café (Tuesday) and a concert – Amy MacDonald – at the Rockhal (Wednesday). Apart from helping my mum out at the village bazaar, I have no other plans this weekend. I am however tempted going to the cinema….
I agree I might be doing too much in too short an amount of time, but being out with people gives me loads and loads of energy as well and makes me feel happy. It is incredible how much I have changed in just about 18 months – I went from a shy introvert, lonely and miserable young professional whose idea of a weekend night out was having a glass of red wine while watching her favourite crime series to an extrovert who is no longer scared talking to strangers and hanging out in bars. This is all thanks to me making a massive effort in regards to my social life when I returned to Luxembourg in July 2011. Things had to change back then – I could just not sit at home, feel sorry for myself and let life pass me by. I had to go out, enjoy what life had to offer – after all I am in my twenties and not a spinster.
However I have had to realise that I kind of went from one extreme to another – from going out hardly at all to going out all the time. Balance I guess is the key word here, and that is a lesson I still need to learn … I am not doing a particularly good job at it at the moment, I have to admit though. I am glad I am home though tonight, I finally have time to work on my blog, some posts are overdue and I am slightly behind my writing schedule. I have also realised that I have not been reading for quite a while, and there are definitely well over 15 unread books on my shelf (aha new topic for my blog is emerging – I could write about the books I read, couldn’t I?), and my ironing is piling up as well (well, I am not looking forward to doing that), so there are definitely enough things I could do at home. Oh yeah and eventually I should get started on the flat hunt as well (oh dear, here I go again…. that is one of my vices, if I get an energy rush I want to do EVERYTHING at the SAME time, which can become frustrating. So I need to remind myself to take one step at a time).
I have booked two days off Monday and Tuesday next week to give myself a break in between chemo and radiotherapy, and recharge my batteries after some important work deadlines. I was wondering whether I should go somewhere, but maybe what my body really needs is just some nice and quiet “down-time” with loads of rest and maybe some chillaxing on my couching having a cuppa or hot chocolate while reading a book. I guess the reason why I am struggling with the reading is because I am finding it difficult finishing one particular book “Tiny Sunbirds Far Away” by Christie Watson – I started reading it well before Christmas, but it is a bit long winded and so I have lost interest, I am stuck on page 218, so I am too far into the book to just give up.. What shall I do? Maybe I need to try reading another book first before going back to it – some of my closest friends in London gave me Caitlin Moran’s “How to be a woman” for my birthday, and seems like a really good funny read…. We shall see.
Books and maybe a trip to the cinema it is then for my long weekend – time to get off the fast lane and back onto the standard lane – I guess if you are driving too fast, you won’t be able to see the countryside that is passing you by…..
For now though it is time to go to bed – night, night and sweet dreams.